Not a long time ago (not more than 10 years)..we've known each other...everyday for us seems like the happiest day in our life..we're laughing together,screaming together,imagining the most wonderful scene where we're together in it and we always talking like there is no tomorrow for us..
yeahhh..it is becomes like this and I really don't get it..
I really don't know..who is the one at fault..I kept saying to the person, "If u found that I did something wrong,please let me know..I want u to be honest with me.." but...we're just like........keep being apart and I didn't know why...I HOPE U TELL ME WHY!!!!U KNOW THAT U'RE TORTURING ME!!!!
THANKS TO U..U'D GAVE ME THE SILENT TORTURE...
I miss how things used to be. The late nights, how in the middle of waiting for your reply, I realize it’s been a while and you’ve probably fallen asleep. I miss not running out of things to talk about, and I miss your side comments. Now I get one-word replies or smiley faces, or even worse, sometimes there’s no more reply. I miss not being able to stand not talking. I miss going online and having you say hi in not more than a minute or two after I’ve logged on. Now, often times we don’t even talk anymore. I miss sleeping to a good night sms and waking up to a good morning one. I miss the way things used to be. I miss you. So. Much. I wish you knew.
Now I had come to my senses a bit..yeah,that person might have the own 'story' regarding this..maybe that person think that I am somewhat annoying or have no fun at all now..or maybe because it's me or that person have been changed..I don't know either..I can accept if that person totally forgetting me now..No,maybe that person didn't forget me but doesn't put me as one of the priority like before..It's ok..I just can accept it..this will happen if we're in the different place..yeahh I know who am I..u will get nothing by treasuring me right??
HUH...I am afraid that I will do this to u..I am afraid that if I treat u the way u treat me,U will hate me..I didn't want to lose u..pliz understand me..I LOVE U...I mean it,eventhough u just said the word "love" to comfort me but as for me...I mean it~
I love u...sooooo much..u're the only one for me..there's no other U in this world..I am happy because GOD let me to know u..I am happy when the destiny between us seems strong but why it is turned out like this now??why???
GOD gave us chance..but WHY only me that giving out a lot of effort to hold it tight while u're just pretending all the time???It hurt me DAMN much!!!!It also hurt me when I know that u're keep talking,calling n messaging another person but not me..Is it hard to send me a...at least "HI" message???
Seriously...I want us to back like before...I want to spend my whole day just for u..I am comfortable with u because u know who the real me..ahh??I dun think u knew it 100% since u're like this now...But,I do want to talk to u..but I am afraid that u will give me the cold response which can hurt me more...
This is the truth..I am telling u the truth..I am happy for the day n time that u spend with me..I feel so secured if u're by my side but now I am thinking..WILL I EVER FEEL THE SAME WAY AGAIN IN THE FUTURE???WILL U TREAT ME LIKE THAT AGAIN WITHOUT ANY BARRIER BETWEEN US??? WILL THE TIME FOR US TOGETHER HAPPENED AGAIN??? I am scared of reality,seriously I am telling u..I am AFRAID.
I don't want to become like this..as for me,u are always be the top one in my heart..I will hold on..Will hold onto our relationship branch to avoid it from break apart..I promise to u that I will always be here for u..U can call me anytime,send me a message or anything..I will surely accept it with pleasure..I know that u will always make me smile..I love that~
I DO BELIEVE THIS :)
n one last thing.. AM I????maybe~~
DEAR U..I do LOVE u n I will ALWAYS DO..
I LOVE U,MY DEAR!!!!!!
U'RE MY BESTFRIEND EVER!!!!!
SORRY FOR BEING EMOTIONAL..BUT I LOVE U!!!I LOVE U!!!!
I WILL NOT FORGET U N I WILL ALWAYS GIVING U MY PRIORITY..
PLIZ DON'T HATE ME~~